Work to live. Live to work. A dilemma.
Anyone that follows my Twitter account has probably seen my depressed tweets about work and my ponderings of what to do with the rest of my working life. At 33 there are a fair few years left of it and I am loathe to spend it “stuck in a rut”.
My current job is a good one. I’m Business Controller of the UK branch of an International business, I work 40 hours per week and get paid a good wage, but unfortunately it is a job I “fell in to” rather than a job that I pursued.
My dilemma is this. Do I stay where I am, in a steady job that I find easy, and wait for the MD to retire (officially this would be in 5 years but because of ill health he has confided in me that he will be trying to retire sooner, perhaps within the next 2-3 years) and then put myself forward for the role of Managing Director. Or do I stop being a moaning Minnie and get my head around what it is that I DO want to do?
I find that I can be very indecisive. I don’t much like risk and I often think less of my abilities than those around me. On the other hand I know that I’m a fairly intelligent woman and I can pretty much deal with whatever is thrown at me and learn very quickly.
I wonder whether I should broach the subject with someone at head office, in regards to the likely hood of me succeeding the current MD? I’m concerned however that this could open up a can of worms. The current MD has mentioned that I would be the person here that would be most likely to succeed him but that means nothing really. He can’t say one way or another what they would want to do when he left.
Also, I do in fact wonder if I actually want the role. I have no experience of the product we sell and so I would have to rely on someone else to provide me with the information of the market, but then, I think this is a fairly common position to be in? I do know the company well however. Perhaps if I got some kind of nod from head office that I would be in with a strong chance of getting the position, then I would be able to start getting some training now and so in a few years time my knowledge would be better.
Am I foolish to be considering leaving when this opportunity is around the corner?
I just don’t know what to do?!